Crossroads

Torture... bondage... anger... jealousy... hatred... lust... pride... impatience... greed... apathy... rage... frustration... ego... snuff... violence... pain... domination... fetish... scorn... arrogance... stubborness... fear ... complacency... laziness... fury... aggression... bloodiness... sufferrings... irresponsibility... hurt... selfishness...

Scream with horror...

Judge not.

Unless you are God.

Just when you think you are going places with your tango...

Had a private lesson today and had a couple of things corrected. Including my posture, the way I land my feet... Sigh... Another low. Didn't enjoy a lot in the El Beso milonga at all. Felt a lot of difficulty in carrying out the changes and integrating them into the dance. Was not able to listen or express the music at all.

It always feels like that after some difficult classes where your fundamentals are being changed... And now the worst thing is having so many teachers, I receive a lot of contradictory points. Of course I have all the best stuff from all these teachers too. But they also want different things, some wants the knees to be straight, some flexed, some want you to land flat footed, some heel first, some wants the hands high some wants it low... etc... and I think my technique is not stable enough yet to try to integrate them all.

Anyway its a tiring night. Hopefully tomorrow, the roller coaster ride is on the way up....