It won't be wrong to say my life is shaped by women.
Of course the number one woman in my life is my mom. When I was young, when my dad use to hit me, she was always there to ask him to stop. Of course I was so bad that soon she started hitting me too...hahahaha.
She's always there no matter how bad or good I am. She's always there no matter how crazy my ideas are. When I wanted to go overseas to study, she supported me. Even though she knew nothing about tango nor Argentina, and would be much happier if I went to other more established universities.
To a son who hasn't repaid much of her faith, she continues to believe. I don't know why... Maybe that's what Mom's do.
The second person that shaped my life, albeit in a more naive way, was Grace. She was the girl I fell in love with from the age of 12 to 19. We never did got together. But I joined chinese drama club, track and field and went to the same junior college, took the same subjects as her. Just because I wanted to be closer to her. She'll never know, but I've always thought that by being in the same school and activities as her, I can send her home everyday and then you know, something might happen... like in the movies. Haha.
Grace is now one of my best girlfriend. She is in a long term relationship and I wish her all the best in life.
From early to mid 20s, I was truely and deeply in love with Gene. My first girlfriend. My idea of love was just to fall in love once and forever. Although we eventually parted, Gene gave me that forever feeling. From the first day till the very last of our relationship, I firmly believed we would go all the way, grow old together till we leave this earthly life. Others may not be able to understand this feeling, and I don't think I myself understand or would ever feel like this again. But this was truely a extraordinary gift from her to me.
Those years were truely blissful and I was contented.
By leaving me, she also set me free. So from the age 24 onwards, though I was burdened with heartbreak, but I was also free. Free as an individual to pursue my own direction. Deep down, I believed thats why she left me; to let me go.
In the last half a year or so, I got to know 'B' (confidential
). She showed my heart how to love again. Physical wounds can heal but emotional scars are forever. But 'B' managed to mend and warm my heart and I fell in love again. She also set me free, free from my emotional burdens.
One needs the opportunity to fall to learn, but one also needs someone to help him to stand from a very bad fall. 'B' did just that.
Behind every successful man there is a woman, I wouldn't know that. But behind this journeyman...these are the women that showed him the way.
